rolling them up

Where will we all go?

It is my understanding that, the extremely religious town of Fresno California, has some potent Christian leadership in the mayors office and the police chief with his tight associates. Something about being blind, not able to see, or just completely missing, the log in my own eye.

The greater good in any situation may be known in a two dimensional world, by mortal beings, as long as flat stays flat. When we try to process the greater good in universal terms and with eternity in mind it will not be that simple. The natural mind or person cannot understand the things of the spirit. only the Spirit understands the things of the Spirit.

If you find yourself reading the bible book of  Ecclesiastics and notice how true and mundane everything seems at the same time. Seasons change, deals are made, and it looks pretty much non stimulating.

But somewhere in the story the words, under the sun, appear more than once, I think.  Could it be that when you see a picture larger than what is apparent, one may also see the many outcomes of the many paths that could be taken to solve the immediate problem, while creating an even greater, long term problem.

Tweekers are known for their extreme paranoia, flagrant dishonesty, and lack of non-tweeker friends. A tweeker will steal your stuff and then help you look for it.

If you let those damned tweekers come to your party, don't expect to have your stereo in the morning.

 

The term tweeker was coined for the sleep deprivation crystal meth addicts usually undergo. Some users would stay up for two weeks at a time so came the phrase 'two weekers' which eventually became tweeker.

Its been days since that guys gotten any sleep or had something to eat.. he's gotta be a tweeker.

 

Any poor soul who has the bad ass luck of growing up in a small depressed desert town in CA or elsewhere who is emotionally addicted to CRYSTAL METH. They will kill and die for it, and can never be cured. They will want it every day for the rest of their lives. They start by doing lines, then smoke it, and eventually they graduate to "slamming" using needles. At this time, they never want to see anyone, unless they are tweeking. They are afraid of everything, except death. All of their friends are parolees, and they aint shit until they have been to prison at least once. They steal everything in sight, draw sexually explicit pictures, talk shit, disapear for days or even weeks, will physically assault the people they love, slash their own wrists and arms. They will lose up to 100 pounds in a few years. They will have spent all of their money and lost any job they might have once had. They are unemployable. They hate themselves. They will spent 5 to 40 hours straight beating off and sticking things up their asses. Some will steal panties from the apartment dryers and wear them. They will eventually accomplish self fellatio! Anything is possible with speed!!!

"Tell your tweeker friend to get the fuck out of my bathroom!"

A tweeker is a person addicted to some type of speed whose favorite hobbies include taking things apart beyond recognition, sitting by the backdoor with a large knife, 'dieting', watching American Idol, and staying up for up to 2 weeks strait. They can some times be dangerous, but are usually a lot of fun.

Yea, that fucking tweeker was about to stab me when I walked through the door, but then she realized who I was! After I watched American Idol with her she gave me her TV to go across town and get her some more crystal. Yea, she's been looking really skinny...

Tweekers are captives, Jesus came to set the captives free, why aren't they free?

The greater good is known only to the greater one.

 

 

where does your help come from?

Where does my help come from? In a recent adventure the realization that my help is other than, may be why I am sitting here. Thinking about help. Realizing how powerless I am. Who will save us?
If I could I would

If we can we will; it will take outside influence  Something Other Than
A powerful force, that fills this earth with love.

Pretty much, it is believed that there is a connection
between the power of the universe
A creative force
Or a person
and love
Love suffers long and is kind

Love does not envy

Love does not parade itself    is not puffed up    does not behave rudely           (oops)
does not seek its own     is not provoked         thinks no evil   does not rejoice in iniquity
Love, rejoices in the truth
Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails
Yea brushing up on love could be the "next right thing"
For us to do.
our help is love
God is love
my help comes from
God                          (as I understand the package)
If it is a package
Here is what I  think I understand
We suck
God  as understood is for us
for us
you and me
love is for us
now what?
We can only dream    and proclaim     what we
See.
And it shall come to pass in the last days, says God,
That I will pour out of My Spirit on all flesh;
Your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,
Your young men shall see visions,
Your old men shall dream dreams.
And on My menservants and on My maidservants
I will pour out My Spirit in those days;
And they shall prophesy.
I will show wonders in heaven above
And signs in the earth beneath:Blood and fire and vapor of smoke.
The sun shall be turned into darkness,
And the moon into blood,
Before the coming of the great and awesome day of the Lord.
And it shall come to pass
That whoever calls on the name of the Lord
Shall be saved.
That is as good as it gets Love always hears the cry
of the broken
the bruised
the poor of spirit
the poor and oppressed
This same love cries out to the
proud
the haters
the stars
the rich
the top
to walk away and follow me, I am the way the truth and the life

just fucking sayun always in love your friend eli

Without Love

If there is nothing in my life giving me peace and hope, and love for others......then what.

well I could consume more and learn more and even make more, and better, and faster, and farther. I could even go to NA AA Church salvation army saint Mary, or VO. I could use the proper fucking language that sits well with all. And even give my shit away, without a flinch.

I could be a super hero and ...save the fucking day, even in the name of Jesus.

I could make everything OK, being a legend in my own mind and so could you.

Or I guess one could just throw in the towel. (what ever that is)

And think it is all a joke.

Without Love.

it is a joke

May we be found now.

While there is still food.

If you have been found lead the way

Or the joke may be on us

not really a joke. Maybe The Solution?

could we change a thing? can I change a thing?

I figured
the only thing I can change is me.

Another world is possible
because we are unstoppable, not me

Always in love of some sort, your friend, bill

WHAT IF

the only fucking point

All we are trying to say is this
if you look around you will see
many dreams gone bad and
when you look at people
what do you see
none other than
the product of
you and me
Obama is the way he is because
of us.
we are the reason
the earth is such a mess
so all I am sayin is what Jesus said
greedy people cannot see the kingdom of God
violent people cannot see the kingdom of God
proud people cannot see the kingdom of God
haters cannot see the Kingdom of God
some fat people cannot see the kingdom of God
fat people and greedy share dna.
so look around you and answer this question
who is showing you God's kingdom.
I am The way
I am The truth
I am The life
I am The way home,  Jesus

Love wins love is God's way, it is OK for others to use it (love) even if they fuck it up, some better lover will come along and fix what we fuck up                        love covers a multitude of fuck-ups

I Love you
eli

once while pissed off

Ever get angry

Me? yes and the more I learn about anger the more I have learned to keep it short and to the point.
I read in the book that it is ok to be angry, biblically speaking it says, don't carry anger to the point of fucking up behind it. Be angry
Sin     not
do not let the sun go down on your anger    (not as if the sun is going to do you)
basically don't fall asleep angry!
because these little tiny parts
of you and me jump down
from our head
into our stomach
and while we sleep they make us sick
anger and sleep
equal BAD HAIR day

So I am angry last week. There is only one option
Trust God
right?
So off to palm springs I go
without my car
or my wife, or any $ an 0 cents sense
For the first hour or so, no one would pick this limply old fart with a walker up and take me anywhere, so I called my friend, Greg
He picked me up to take me to the freeway, I think I may have shared with Greg, how corrupt the chief of police is here in Fresno.
Or how aggressive and militant the pigs are around the poorest group of mutherfuckers man has ever known.
where food is manufactured by machines
and people are kicked to the curb
then kicked under the bus
and left to die
YES in fucking central cali!

Now Greg has just dropped me off at the entrance to 99 at the end of Herndon Avenue
sitting on my walker, trying to calm down before it gets dark.
with no shoes on
in the heat  and then I sense a car pulling in behind me
them   I notice it is the fucking sheriff's car
looking straight at the ground, cause I was going to be ready for this guy, maybe even jail, or at least an hour in the "holding cell".   I look up and
here comes the most gentle, pretty, kind, pig,
that is not a pig    but a
beautiful
lady that  says, "I see you have no shoes, and wondered if I could give you a ride somewhere".
just sayin
Always in love; let us grab hands and head for the light while we still can.  make love not war. #embracepoor

Who Can I believe

BELIEVE THIS

Is there any confusion among you
in the end times men (and women?) will be
Greedy
Lovers of themselves
horny (like what your kids watch on TV)
Arrogant
Godless
Unmerciful
Promiscuous (really?)
murderers
motherfuckers
father fuckers
brother fuckers
Sister fuckers
Violent
trusting everything
but God
Holding to powerless forms of godliness
while
worshiping idols
with your best interest in mind
We must change the paradigm or, God should be in the process I think.
The paradigm shift is a God sponsored event, that will take place the minute or the second
or the very millisecond one sees the Kingdom of God
have you seen this?  There is a book full of stories about this kingdom. Some people are satisfied with knowing all these stories (good stories)
in the correct order
in the original language
with all the rules applied
in the correct juxtaposition
and fucking social context
And never Taste, like studying an album cover or CD insert; you can know all about the band, the language, social context
but never hear the songs
the song is the event, listening to it
singing it
feeling the music
let it affect you
infect you
effect you
or fill you with sorrow
or joy
or hope
or memories
what the fuck good is music if you can't experience
it (music)
What the fuck good will it do to know there is someone in the sky to take care of me by and by and if I cannot
experience
taste
hear
and see
and know
Him or Her or we may be able to say Them  (if you carefully explain trinity) or not
may you find this shift now
don't ask me how
just grab it when it is there.
Always your friend we are all in this together.
spread the love
eli  #embracepoor

One Minute Sermon

being poor

Poor is better


Tim Keller's video is most excellent for a gracious approach to being Poor. I believe it was Philip Yancy, who wrote about being at the presidential prayer breakfast during the Clinton years. I am not sure I have this verbatim but.
During a time economic struggle and deep concern for the direction of this nation Yancy talks about being poor.
by quoting Jesus
Blessed are the poor, Mr. President, when we are poor it is better. it is not the economy, stupid.
it is poverty we are after.
not to be # one
smartest
most powerful
fewest abortions
bigger churches
American dream
strongest military
Woe unto you who are rich, said Jesus
the chances of hearing and responding to the call of God,
are proportional to the amount of stuff you own but do not need.

A lot of truth here, if we disconnect being poor to being saved, we may be lying to ourselves, as we remain in denial. What does it mean to be poor?

Make love to your Guns or (fuck guns) just sayin

GONE HUNTING

Three in the morning at the Poverello, out of the car now walking around, a young agitated lady warns me that this is a dangerous place for me to be in my 08 Accord. Roll up the windows she said, and lock the doors. I assured her that the Lord was with us and there is nothing to fear.

She looked at me like, "you don't get it"? Driving on and asking a few more questions, I learned I would have to wait till around four to meet the guy I was looking for.
So I park at a gas station under the light, after making sure there were no signs that forbid parking under said light, the engine goes off and all is well.

Fucking police car pulls up to light at intersection...............and I am hoping the two cops in the car aren't more of Fresno's finest "shoot first" ask questions latter, group. They did not shoot me, but you could tell they were a bit bumfuckeled that a 61 year old cripple guy wants to sit under a light in a gas station in one of Fresno's
finest areas
reading a book.
at 3 am.
In their usual aggressive manner, that assumes everyone is lying, an officer that used to work for the people asks me for my license. This brave man warns me that I am in a dangerous area, roll up windows and lock doors
and be careful
and then the cops
drive off.

There I am without a fucking gun, just like the last forty years of my life, no fucking gun. So this little message is for all the fucking straw men, that are going to take my rights if I don't have a gun.

Mother Theresa hand no guns, the little short nun worked the worst parts of NY with no body guards.

Two hundred homeless farmworkers from Mexico and South America, lived in the, Church On San Juan Road, along with the regular homeless people and a few parolees, no fucking guns no fear.

It is time for us to plan for peace, plan to get rid of the riot gear, plan to settle differences without pigs. Sounds a little 60s I know...............but I was there! Just in case you don't understand it has only become more violent, more dead, more bombs, more guns, more laws, even more church.

If you own a gun, man the fuck up and get rid of it. And get rid of it in such a manner that no one else can use it. Before all the righteous mutherfuckers  pick up anything with a trigger and destroy each other, as they do away with evil.

Occupy you heart, rid yourself of evil, #embracepoor

Embrace the poor and it all goes away. Jesus loves us..................really!

Dreaming

Now We Can Dream

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If you are a dreamer, I heard it is ok to dream now. While dreaming just the other day, we imagined no cars, no factories, far less convenience, and more life.

The dream we are having is full of people, humans so full of love that no one was in need of anything. The place was light all the time, a universal radiance. The power of love was more intense, than the greatest display of military power, and made "shock and Awe" seem like an even greater mistake than already perceived. Just as we began to see, and then explain, what we still see....”Men will never love one another”… “Without competition we will not advance”… “The poor we will always have with us”, was all that could be heard from those who were still rubbing the sleep from dim eyes. A day comes when each one sees himself and then sees others as brothers and sisters. Suddenly a flash of revelation, and the realization that men are not money they are God's gift, and we must connect. We see now that it was never about marriage certificates,  thought necessary to master sexual pleasure, but is has always been about using people for pleasure and gain, without mutuality.  It is not about “I won’t piss in the lake in my front yard”, because I might have to drink …..Now it is about others who live around the lake, and even those who live in it.

What a mess this place is becoming in our dream. There are still a few power hungry pleasure seekers trying to hold on the old stuff. With eyes almost shut, they still think killing and destroying stuff is impressive, even fear-inducing…..a yawn is given the eyes open just enough to see that perfect love eliminates fear. The bombs, the terrorists, and all the dictators in the world, cannot cause love to flinch. It looks like love truly does win. God is love, we know this because we know that we know that we know………..it resonates.  Anyway we dream our way back to the mess, another flash as we look at burnt down buildings, destroyed houses, and big ole holes in the streets, we have found something to do.

Love dominates as we try to put others needs ahead of our own, and consider all of creation before we put this mess back together. So off we go in joy unspeakable and hands joined all around the world, ET has phoned home and dad said now the reconciliation begins. All of a sudden in my room in Gilroy nothing has changed, I am awake, everything just where I left it. But hope, where did that come from? Something is different, the things are all the same, but just a little dreaming has truly began a change in me.